My journey…

TRAUMA INFORMED BREATHWORK PRACTITIONER, EMBODIMENT COACH & TRANSPERSONAL PSYCHOTHERAPIST.

I have been navigating an undulating journey back home to myself for much of my adult life. After experiencing layers of childhood trauma, including the loss of my Mother when I was twelve years of age, my pain and unexpressed grief eventually caught up with me.

I felt flat, empty, perpetually fearful and disconnected from the wider world, even within relationships where I felt safe. Joy, spontaneity, confidence and inner peace were practically unknown experiences.

Guilt, shame, anger, fear, loneliness and mistrust were my constant internal companions.

I struggled to be fully known in relationships, felt lost and completely without any sense of purpose. My body was not a comfortable place within which to reside, there was so much pain bubbling below the surface that I frequently found ways to numb, dissociate or check out. My body was a tool, something attached to my busy, hyper-vigilant mind, it was neither my friend nor place of refuge, it felt unsafe, unreliable and unpredictable.

A pivotal point…

When my own life story finally brought me to my knees I initially (and with great resistance!) explored conventional, talk based psychotherapy. It was a revelation to explore, within relationship, what had happened, how I felt, why I showed up in the world in certain ways and that I was not alone in my struggle. For what felt like a first for me, I felt heard, seen and understood. As my exploration deepened I exposed layer upon layer of grief, it was empowering to be able to expose, to speak about and allow another to energetically hold.

I still felt the deep pain in my body, insecure, anxious and so tightly wound into a man-made tomb of containment.

My body had learnt how to suffocate the flow of uncomfortable emotions by holding onto them with such tension that at the same time, restricted the flow of my vital life force energy.

At this pivotal point, I was gracefully led towards something unheard of by me at the time, ‘breathwork’. I was starting to finally trust the natural flow of life and saying yes rather than no or disappearing into myself and completely avoiding!

My experience with the breath was stunning, transformational, liberating and was, at this time, the greatest step I had taken towards coming home to myself.

My noisy, chaotic brain quietened, energy, emotions, organic movements and sound moved through me like a gently meandering stream. With my attention on breath and my felt sense (rather than analysis/over intellectualising), my body began to naturally care for itself, unwinding, softening, opening, releasing and making space.

My tears flowed freely, with such joyful ease and most interestingly for me, with no story attached to them.

At the end of the process, whilst lying in stillness I experienced a sense of stillness, peace and an embodied knowing that everything was going to be all right. More tears but this time accompanied by a smile, a huge sense of relief and a desire to dive head first into the magic of the breath.

This life changing experience led me on a fascinating discovery of reclaiming my own body and fullness of breath. Multiple trainings, personal experiences, being guided, mentored and deep in personal practice. I experimented with ancient and modern, eastern and western breathwork modalities, meditation practices, bodywork, plant medicine, embodied movement practices and somatic psychotherapy.

The purpose I had been searching for finally manifested its way into my life with crystal clear clarity.

I was to live a life of service, sharing abundantly the gifts, tools, teachings and practices that had literally breathed life back into my soul (& saved my life).

I am now devoted to supporting people to reclaim their wholeness, their naturalness and to return home to their body through the power of trauma informed breathwork, embodiment and transpersonal psychotherapy.

I offer In-Person and Online sessions, if you would like to find out more I would love to hear from you.

WORK WITH ME

The following men and women have impacted and shaped my life so significantly…

Their wisdom, teachings and love have made me the man I am today. They have supported and guided me to a place where I can live a life of purpose, sharing their magic infused with some of own!

Much love, gratitude and admiration to:

Duane O’Kane & Maria Alexandre - Clearmind International
Maria Alexandre - Metta Emergence
Zat Baraka - Men’s Wisdom Work
Steph Magenta - Integrative Breathwork
Giten Tonkov - Biodynamic Breathwork
Tyson Adams - Thriive